Monday, January 22, 2007

Sure Do

Addie has a few favorite phrases right now:  "A couple of weeks ago..." "Sometimes..." and "Sure do."  These get used in almost every sentence Addie speaks right now, whether she understands what they mean or not. 


We were on the way to the ear/nose/throat specialist this morning, and Addie, quiet for a few moments, finally pipes up. 


"Mommy?"


"Yes, Addie?"


"A couple of weeks ago, Daddy lost his mind."


I almost spit out my coffee.


"Mommy?"


"Yes, Addie?"


"Where did he lose his mind?"


Which entailed an overly long discussion of what "to lose one's mind" might mean, and when we say it.  It also led to a discussion of how long "a couple of weeks ago" is, as I believe I told her just yesterday that her father was losing his mind.  Glad that stuck with her.


Anyway, the bad news is that it looks like Addie's a prime candidate for having her tonsils and adenoids removed.  She's got hearing loss in one ear, and fluid for miles in there.  She has to have a CAT scan later this week, and then probably surgery.  I feel a little sick even writing that, and am trying hard not to imagine what she's going to look like, cotton packing and swelling and all.


At first, I felt like I was taking all this in stride.  It's a pretty minor surgery, after all, and she's a tough kid.  But in my head I keep piling up the list of things on our plate right now:  Eric needs a deviated septum fixed or he's going to snore us out of house and home.  Addie has this surgery.  And, I don't want to impinge on anyone's privacy here, but I will say that a cherished member of our extended clan is fighting a second bout with cancer.  Like I said, a lot on the plate. 


I thought I was staying fairly calm about everything, which is not my m.o.  Usually, I make a big drama out of everything, make it all about me.  But I haven't really been doing this lately, and was sort of congratulating myself about staying relatively even-keel.  And, checking in now, I'm breathing a lot, and focusing on my love for those around me, and just doing the daily stuff.  No huge panic attacks or meltdowns on the horizon.


But this stuff appears to be working itself out in my sleep.  I've been grinding my teeth for a few years now, and the dentist keeps harping on me to get a night guard, but it's $350.00, and our insurance doesn't cover it (those a-holes).  I figured it could wait--we just shelled out an arm and a leg to get our dilapidated old Subaru back on the road, and we have to spend a lot to get the house on the market, so I just didn't get it done.  But last night I discovered there is a chunk of one of my molars missing--ground off in my sleep. 


I'm tempted to just throw my hands up and say, "Add it to the list!  Get in line!"  But the whole martyrdom thing isn't so appealing.  I was telling someone about Addie's surgery today, and they said, "Phew!  I thought you were going to say she had something much worse."  Which reminded me there are different ways to view all these things, and to view them as catastrophes is one way of going about it, though that way involves much gnashing (or grinding) of teeth and pulling of hair.  Or, I could view them as just the stuff of life, opportunities to look at my loved ones with fresh eyes, with renewed appreciation that they are in my life--whatever the circumstances may be.



20 comments:

  1. Crap. That sucks about Addie needing surgery and all that other stuff. But good news that it's relatively minor in the scope of things and also that you guys listened to your own observations enough to be able to address a potential medical issue that could have gone on much longer. Somehow I wonder if this helps explain the drooling too. Is that possible? Call me if you need to vent a minor (or major) meltdown through the abuse of chocolate and/or bad Cathy Bates movies and/or anything else. You won't stop being the Zen Mom if you do.

    I always forget what adenoids do, so they must not be that important.

    Also, curious why Eric lost his mind. That is fricking HILARIOUS that A. said that. At any rate, probably a phrase she needs to learn in our family--or at least in a world in which that is a pretty common side effect.

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  2. thinking about your molar made me wince - ahhhh! I hope you, and everyone else, is ok!

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  3. I know--crazy. It's freaking me out. Gray hair, cracking teeth. What's next--bunions?

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  4. Nan,

    Thanks--I might take you up on your offer (although I think I prefer Gina Gershon to Kathy Bates now).

    Obviously, I'm not so zen, if I'm cracking my teeth out of my own head...

    Jen

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